I'm very stumped

(Kinky brain says, "No you're not, you know which way you want to go, submitting to Sir! Teehee!")

I always thought I'd grow up into being a businesswoman or a civil rights activist. I'm not sure how to reconcile these two parts of myself. Now I can't decide, or everyday me can't decide. Kinky me has her mind made up already. Kinky me is saying, "Well, you can't decide? Submit to Sir! So much fun! So easy!"

While it is true that I have let Kinky me have a front seat, I'm not sure how far I want to take this, if Kinky me can even handle herself.

After submitting to Sir and becoming His submissive...

(Kinky me is saying, "Nooo, stop overthinking :> just obey Sir.")

Fuckkk.

Anyway, Sir...

(Kinky me: "Yes! Good girl! You used the right words!")

...has managed to somehow make me willing to give Kinky me a front seat. And that feels super confusing because after I started noticing that happening I struggled to figure out who "me" was. I had a set of coping mechanisms that I used to deal with my self-hatred and hatred of the fact that I had these submissive tendencies and cravings.