Edit: I feel the need to put a disclaimer that this is just me sharing random thoughts. Please stop messaging me asking to creampie me. The answer is no.

And that is a dangerous realization for a slut to come to.

I've been playing with only one partner for around a month and we've gone bareback since day one. We had discussed our statuses and moved past it but I still expected to use condoms because guys mostly always did.

But the first time we played he never even asked. He simply spread my legs, and slid inside me. I was tied up and gagged so I couldn't even protest. And when he began fucking me I didn't want to. I was his to use, being maneuvered into different positions, taking his cock until he filled me with his cum.

Bareback is so perfect. So right. So amazing.

I saw a friend who was in town last weekend. I've known him for years, and this time he didn't ask either. Simply bent me over my couch, grabbed a fistful of my hair, and pounded me senseless. He came so much it was dripping down my thighs before he even pulled out.

And the other day another partner I don't see often, maybe once a month, came over to fuck me on my lunch break. I get wet, very wet. Like dripping down your balls when you fuck me wet. But this partner used a condom. And I dried up within 10 minutes of him inside me. And it felt so muted, like a shadow of what it was supposed to be.

He ended up pulling it off and finishing down my throat, and after he left I got myself off to the thought of a creampie being pumped inside me.

I have a chance to meet up with someone new tonight. We got the usual details out the way. Shared results and such. But he wants to use a condom because the pill isn't enough and blah blah. And I am very close to canceling because I know it won't be as good as I'm now used to. My play partner has spoiled me with an entire month of bare cock filling me and now I can't bring myself to go back.

The slut in me wants what it wants. And she always wins in the end.