So when F2F classes are coming, I hate going to school because every minor subject has a recitation. I struggle more with minors than majors. The topics are always history, documentation, laws, war, government basically things I know nothing about. Maybe because I don’t watch or read about those, and when I listen at school lumalabas naman agad sa kabilang tenga ko. I was never interested in those kinds of topics.

Back in kinder, I was always excited to go to school. In grades 1-3, I only remember buying candy before and after class, climbing windows, nagwawalis while nakaupo then i saw classmate without underwear, and short literal na palda lang nakabukaka pa.then natae sa school bigla akong umuwi nagtago pa ako sa bahay para hindi halatang nag cutting kaso nangamoy yung cr after ko gamitin.

In grade 3-9, I wasn’t allowed to touch notebooks, and if I did assignments, it had to be within an 1 hour. I remember in grade 4, I was just drawing, and suddenly, my stuff got thrown my aunt. (katulong kasi ako ng tita ko kaya dapat focus sa gawaing bahay kahit wala na dapat gawin) But I could still answer in recitations and memorize fast that time.

Now in college, I can’t answer anymore. Even memorizing one sentence takes me an hour. My memory is getting worse I don’t even remember my sections or subjects. The embarrassing moments? My prof called my name for attendance and was shocked, saying I looked fresh and pretty (dapat talaga hindi ako mag aayos nito kasi may recetation nakakahiya pag hindi ako nakasagot kaklase kopa kapitbahay naming mukang may inis sakin). Then, later nabunot ako sa index card ko, and she asked about Spain vs. PH if ano daw nangyare nun syempre wala ako nasagot. so she changed the question: "What’s the English of Noli Me Tangere?" ayun tangina wala padin ako masagot. (nakatayo ako 1hour haha)

Another time, I got called again to pick a type of line and explain my feelings. I didn’t pick anything because I felt nothing. Since the prof wouldn’t stop, I just picked zigzag. Then, this biglang may tumingin sakin tiningnann ako nung boy (na katabi na palagi ko tinitingnan at palagi ako tinitingnan lol) at biglang kinausap nya yung katabi nya para bang ako yung tinutukoy(assumera e nu haha).so ayun I didn’t explain my answer because I felt nothing. After 20 mins, I finally thought of something: “I was nervous because I got called for recitation.” HAHAHA

babawi na talaga ako sayang ganda ko kung wala akong utak. kaya minsan pag nakakakita ako ng hindi bawi sa mukha pero bawing bawi naman sa utak gusto ko nalang maging panget. hays