Eversince I was in elementary I really can't handle performing in front of a croud even if it's just my classmates, I'm having trouble with it. I can't handle social gatherings as well, so that explains a lot. Pero SHS student na ako I expected that I would be able to do it. Para lang mawala yung kaba inisip ko na yung mga niresearch ko yung mga binasa ko just to come up with that "script", and yung magiging result nung performance task na yon pati na din yung response ng teacher, syempre. And I know sa pamamagitan non makukuha yung attention ng teacher namin because it was quite different compared to the outputs of the other groups tapos ilang hours before the performance ayos pa ako pero nung time na ng performance my hands and feet felt numb, nahihilo, sweating (malamig sa rrom) tas I sat na at the back of the class kase nandon yung groupmates ko and some classmates na alam kong can comfort me tas medjo tago pero wala na I couldn't think of anything I just looked at the other performers looked at other people then looked away. Inisip ko na lang is kung kaya ko ba, and yung mga tao, mga classmates kong nanonood, then I started to hyperventilate for a few minutes then dun ako nag focus I wanted to control my breathing in which I managed to control. My hands still felt numb. I then complained to my groupmates, already felt like crying but I still managed to distract myself at least for a minute, I think, then started to complain again then yun na I freaking cried, not cried like 😭, but I definitely felt tears flowing out of my eyes we got out of the class then started to gather my compsure pero yon throughout the speech if I can call that speech gusto ko na lang lumayas ng school, mag stay sa bahay. Pero I did my best. Well not my best pero I did what I can, and my groupmates said that it was good that I did good. Pero I would rather not to do that again. After the performance my hands were still shaking. I didn't want to be there to begin with napilit lang pero ayos lang it was a challege. Do i regret doing it? Definitely yes pero what's done is done all I can do is reflect from that event. This isn't the first pala na nangyari toh netong SHS na ako. Yung nakita akong naiyak was definitely a first.