I have been dancing for like 8 months now and it has been the best months of my life. I have a very clear goal and most of my money I’m saving for plans and goals that I have. However I’m so lucky I make all this money and even on weeks/months were I reach my weekly/monthly goal and exceed it I can’t seem to treat myself. This month I made a ridiculous amount of money and there are many things I’d love to buy/treat myself to but I feel so guilty. If for ex my weekly goal is 2k and i make 5k i strictly put 3k in my savings and only live off and spend from my weekly amount I give myself. This month specifically has been such a blessing and I would love to splurge on x y or z but I never look at the extra money as spending money but rather savings so I can accumulate and reach my goal faster.

Just this week one of my regulars was telling me how next time he’s in town he wants to take me shopping but that he won’t be able to come to my city for a while so he sent me some money and told me to go shopping, and my automatic thought was “nice I have x amount extra to save 🙂‍↕️” but why don’t I go ahead and treat myself? This isn’t even money I worked for but rather a thoughtful gift from an appreciative customer.

I know it’s not terrible but I hate that I think this way because I work hard and this job isn’t easy and I also deserve nice things and not everything is work work and saving. For whatever reason I just feel so guilty spending large amounts of money because I do value it a lot and know it’s not easy to earn it, and also how easy it is to irresponsibly spend it.