I don’t know if this is the right place for this but I thought I would try it to see if there’s anyone out there who could advise me please. I just started stripping a month ago and personally I love it. Coming back to this industry after years has blown up my self confidence, and has really helped me grow as a person as weird as that sounds.

Currently however I am in a nasty custody battle with my ex who lives states away. I got into this for multiple reasons but one of the main ones was so I could save up and get a lawyer to help me. Point blank he is a narcissist and has been harassing me for years, I have police records, he tried to drive me into a telephone pole while I was pregnant and he still harassed me to this day over text and TikTok. (I’ve since closed my account and blocked him) but he keeps sending people he used to work with to stalk my home and just a few days ago I got fallowed home. (That being the third time this month) This has been happening now for years and I am currently getting a restraining order on him for his behavior.

The problem is here I live in the north east and DCF has custody of my child since December all because my senior pitbull has anxiety when people come over and shit and pissed on the floor in front of my social worker. The initial 51A was filed when my son was an infant and because his father threw him down into the crib when he was still jsit a month old. From that point on I hustled to get out of his home and into my own place. Now I am living alone with my two dogs still and trying to find a home for the one who has been having problems. This is a very hard and long process and dcf is not playing fair. I have a serious disability and other things that are going on with my health that I have struggled all my life with but it doesn’t prevent me from being a good mother.

Currently I am worried that dcf is going to give my child to his father and he doesn’t even want the kid. He just doesn’t want to pay child support. I’m still just keeping head above water and still don’t have a savings but I do have an attorney that in my opinion sucks because he is an appointed attorney. My problems here is I told dcf I got a job but I didn’t tell them what and I have lied to my parents and everyone involved about what I do for work I have not lied to my attorney but I don’t want to lie in court either. I’m not sure what to do here I can’t quit this job anything else doesn’t pay what I need and a regular job just makes me anxious and this has been the only way I can make my life work the way I want it too. Is there anybody who has delt with this and is there anyway to keep this part of my life private while I go through this? I am working so hard to get my son back and I am just afraid of blowing it.