Stripping only works for me with a greater purpose. When I go inspired, with a plan for tomorrow, a greater goal in mind - I meet good people, make good money and feel energized after a shift. I still feel whole.

When I go in because the last shift was good but I didn't put in more work - like my home is messy, my nails are chipped and painted over, my outfit, makeup, hair uninspired - the wheels start to come off as soon as I hit the floor.

It's a lotta work, I cross my boundaries, undersell, not feeling myself, get a headache, glue myself together with ibuprofen and end up sick after the shift.

There are probably people who can work every day and just wing it but for me, if I don't support and prepare myself fully before, it takes away from me more than it adds. It's all about the intention I go in with. When I don't have one, I land somewhere I don't wanna be. It really disconnects me from myself.

Just learned that the hard way once again. The aftermath ain't worth it.