I was actually instructed by my teacher to not talk to too many people during this 2-month or so period, but following my intuition, it said that one post would probably be ok.

I'm just writing and hoping that someone will be helped by my words.

I feel there has been significant progress made. "Time" and "me" vanish. I'm still "me" linguistically, but I am That. All things emerge from it. Without the mind there is no time

to speak of. I "get it" now. (like how I "get it" that there are no people)

It's not a state, but it can seem to be. It's like it strobes in and out of awareness which is expanding. I'm aware of a singular vastness, a light beyond all things.

I have never experienced what others call the Dark Night, but I have done 20 years of therapy, so I am assuming that a lot was processed there. There are emotions like fear that

came up to be integrated. It feels like the "me" is going to die - but the me is an illusion. As all the teachers say, just go into the emotion. It is made up of the same sense of

everything.

There have been life challenges that resurrect powerful negative emotions...if Tolle is to be believed, the Universe is just giving me what I need to awaken more fully.

(I think this can be only dealt with AFTER trauma and other mental wounding is healed. I've used this methodology in my therapy, but I also had to combine it with a lot of

other more conventional methods)

I managed to speak to Angelo Dilulo and he was very helpful and instructive. (This is the 2nd time actually, first was after my initial kensho in June) What he said feels like what

is happening now - the process is happening on its own. "I" don't need to do anything. Consciousness has its own momentum. Abandon self to Self, to Being.

Once again some descriptions I've read years ago (sometimes decades) seem more accurate now that I have more direct experience. The Christian mystics speak of a land of light, it feels

like everything is that sometimes. Everything is realized as energy and consciousness. There's more distance from the mind. There is the awareness of one taste "behind"

everything - emotions and thoughts are "floating" on that patina.

This feels about the correct amount to write. I am trying not to interact too much and let it unfold.