At the behest of my teacher, I have not posted anything in a month, instead concentrating on my own practice. But I felt it was a good time to check in. People have said they appreciate my reports, so I am continuing to post them.

I realize that not everyone reads all my posts, and I don't want to write my life story each time. I trust what I write will speak for itself. A short bio would be that I've been seeking in some form or another for 25 years. I read a lot of spiritual texts, until I realize all lead to essentially the same truth.

The practice and life has become mainly following what flows. Experience and awareness arise. It just happens, and it is. There is less and less mind and need for thought (I realize

even in writing this, I feel less of a need to explain)

At times, I'm able to penetrate to a sense of "just this". There's nothing, and everything. No me, no thoughts. How do I be this 24/7? (Perhaps I am too naive, but I believe that state is well, the true reality. Just the mind cuts it up.)

Conceptual understanding and direct experience merge. I take certain things to be the truth, assuming I will experience them someday. For instance, there was a talk given by

Angelo Dilulo about space and time being illusions. I was like "how do I experience that?" and tried to read about it. Mind can't fathom that. However now, I "get it". There's an experience of "oh, it's all one point" although I can't explain it conceptually. It just happened.

Worldly desires fall away. There's almost no desire for entertainment or nice tasting food. "it's nice to have, don't need it to be happy" basically. I used to play tons of games, now very few catch my attention. I still listen to music and have preferences, but much less. I feel like a monk lol.

I do actually feel "awake" if the definition of that is "I know I am not the mind, I am consciousness, as is everyone." There's this sense of energy and connection at all times.

There's nothing to "seek" now. If I continue, I trust liberation will follow, as the journey will seek out what is still in delusion and dualistic. "Suffering" may arise as challenges.

I'm dealing with a situation regarding payment and finances now. If I let my awareness deepen, there's no opposition. I still have to take action to maintain boundaries and act in my best interests, though. It's been challenging to remain eqanimous and not let the mind dictate the situation.