I've been doing more self-enquiry (which now stabilizes me in the "no I") state as well as a nondual meditation I found online in which I imagine objects as recognizing me as well as I recognize them, and then expanding that sense field to include everything. The state of no "I" seems to have become the default as long as I remain present. Now there are just sensations, "no doer only the doing".

Obviously there is still an "I" that writes this post, but that is a localized sense of being that is required for the body and ego to move around.

I've noticed that the "I" (ego) gets activated when I get jealous or upset, then I begins to surface. When this happens I try to use Angelo Dilulo's technique of just "dropping" the emotion, and I realize it is a huge mass of energy. Also, Eckhart Tolle has a technique in the New Earth of letting

the experience of having the ego threatened actually boost the Higher Self, which seems to work.

I've been in intensive therapy before, so I can recognize the arising of emotion as normal and I'm not spiritually bypassing it. It's interesting to observe the emotions with a different perspective.

I feel I can go deeper and further though, so I have been doing the non-dual meditation. I am still perceiving time and space to exist, but at times when I do the meditation the sense of "in-betweeness" I've experienced before deepens - I can somehow feel I am the sofa (sky, whatever), and me, at the same time. I understand intellectually that there is only Consciousness expressing itself everywhere, sometimes that intellectual realization becomes an embodied feeling and then it fades. (it's hard to put into words)

In general it feels like I am passing through stages, from disidentifying from the mind, to awareness, to no "I" and going onwards...not sure which model works the best for me. I've used xabir's models and the Maps of Insight in the past, maybe the ox-herding pictures are better? (I would say I am at the 3 or 4th ox-herding picture maybe?)

(Interestingly enough when I post on the nonduality sub, people there seem to think there are no stages to awakening, whereas my experience and reading have been that there are.)

I feel I am getting somewhere, and I do feel shifts in reality and identity, as well as more palpable joy and peace in each moment. The luminosity of previous stages has also intensified and become more stable. I'm also aware of emptiness "beneath" things, if that makes sense, and a latent brilliance in reality. As many here have said, it's more a letting go of than anything - the more the ego and mind loosen their hold, Higher Self/God/Consciousness shines through.

As always, looking forwards to continuing, all insights welcome. (I'm aware that "progress" is also just remembering who you really are, the Source, but still has to happen as I'm still bound in time

currently.)