Today while meditating and doing self-inquiry I had another experience similar to my initial kensho (I now quite firmly believe it is kensho, since I don't identify with my mind anymore) It felt like a blue-green field of vision had opened up, and beckoned me to it. I experienced some fear but trusted in my instincts to go forwards, I felt something pull me beyond. Like the kensho experience, it's hard to put into words because it happens somewhere beyond the mind.

After this, I felt that my sense of "I" had become more of "everything". I was at first intellectually only aware of this concept, but now it's more a lived reality. I'm now more sure than ever that I will eventually experience everything else I've read about if I continue my practice - anatta, fetters falling away, slowing down of phenomena etc.

At the same time, I'm cautious that I don't go too fast (the voice that has been guiding me actually said slow down, center yourself in this feeling of I) and I'm aware that I am still learning (and forgetting!)

I felt like just recounting my experiences as people on the sub have generally been helpful. There was also a lot of energy movement in the body, I just let it happen. My IRL situation is chaotic but somehow inside and in the experience of every moment, I feel alright, sometimes serene. It's paradoxical.

In terms of practice I think I have a practice that fits me. Foundationally, samadhi and insight meditation (the two wings) investigating into the senses, and self-enquiry. I've heard

and read of lots of other techniques (Mahasi noting etc) but I want to focus on what works.

Still resting and letting it settle. I will continue with self-enquiry in the future as it seems to be effective.

May all be blessed and loved.