Many thanks for all who helped with my previous posts. I hesitated to write this (if I am doubting my awakening, am I awakened?) but my internal guidance system said it was ok. I'm using the Zen term kensho because I think it's approriate, as it's only an initial insight.

After doing self inquiry for upwards for 10- hours in the last few days (I am hardcore) this morning I had an experience of a blue white void appear and a voice beckoned me to enter it. It was an image and yet not an image, hard to put into words. I entered.

I began to feel really weird, again hard to put into words. When I opened my eyes, I sort of realized everything I read about is true. There is no "I" writing this, only the watcher. Things appeared slightly more luminous. I can "hear" the thread of my mind chugging along and know it's not me.

I took a couple of hours to just sit with this - I'm still sitting with it. Everything I've read so far tells me this is just the beginning of the entry, not an endpoint - I can conceptually understand how everything is connected etc, but not feel it. However, I can feel and know that I am awareness. So I believe it's very preliminary, but it feels different from everything else I've encountered.

All the glimpses I've had into this (as early as decades ago) now make a lot more sense. But I want to go further after integrating this experience more.

It feels all kind of swirly inside at the moment (wut? awakening? omgwtf) but I just felt I had to write about it.