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I’m starting to feel a little scared and paranoid
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I am very new to this- and I think I just experienced “the breath” for the first time. My eyes were closed but all the sudden my vision got very bright and it got brighter and brighter. I started to feel hollow and then filled with a pleasantness. It was the most intense happiness I’ve felt in my entire life. I felt a little uneasy and I opened my eyes a little and saw my ceiling, then I slowly started to climb down from this state.

I felt very happy afterward- but loopy, like I was high.

Now I’m really paranoid and I don’t know why. I’m starting to feel like other unexpected things are going to happen out of nowhere even though I’m not meditating right now. I’m also just genuinely scared of what happened to me.

It was unlike anything I’ve ever experienced.

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Ahhh I think this is it. I interrupted my meditation so it upset me. That makes perfect sense

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I was attempting to attain jhana- but I am using ajahn Brahms defintion

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Wow this is super helpful. Thank you.

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Very shallow- like I wasn’t breathing at all

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Not anymore. I get night paranoia sometimes even before I started meditating so I think that experience just amplified that

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Do you have any tips to not get attached?

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