So after countless times of dowloading and deleting grindr I finally had the house to myself and decided to just go for it. I figured hosting would make it easier but that wasnt quite the case. Finally after a failed night, the next morning I just said yes to the first guy that actually said he could come over.

He arrived and we went into the family room. We immediately got naked and I had my first dick in front of me. I was extremely nervous so I had him start blowing me first. After I settled down and got horny enough i decided to go down on him. I was excited to suck precum straight from the faucet since I enjoy mine, but i could barely taste it. We got in a 69 position and we kept blowing each other. I sucked his balls and went as deep as i could (not very far). Finally he pulled away and started to eat my ass. This is something i throughly enjoy so I just sat there and received. He then put a finger in me which ive had exes do before.

then came the turning point. He tried to fuck me, which i was okay with trying but i was clearly too nervous and too tight for it to work. He tried to push in and something hurt so i said nope and he went back to sucking me and fingering me. I kind of lost everything at that point. couldnt stay hard anymore. I kept blowing him but eventually lost interest. He jerked himself off and came which turned me on again because i love cum. We sat there awkwardly and he eventually left.

afterwards he told me i was actually very good and he enjoyed himself which pleased me. He also said we shouldve gone slower (no shit).

Something about his dick just didnt really turn me on. Ive seen plenty online but his in person did nothing. He was uncut which I rarely look for in porn i just wanted to finally suck one. Not sure if I get a cut cock if i would be more into it, also not trying to get fucked so quickly. I feel on one hand that i tried and it wasnt for me but on the other hand a nice shaved, cut cock looks so delicious.

Open to answering questions or taking advice. Thanks!