So I'm 43 and my whole sexual life I've found ways and reasons to have sex with men. I've always considered myself bisexual. For as long as I can remember I've always me excuses for why I hooked up with guys, we were drunk as fuck or stoned or on something that caused me to suck their cock or take out the ass. Never once did I ever just see it for what it really was. I've been single now for almost 3 years and never in my life have I had such a hard time hooking up with girls. The longest dry spell I've ever had in my life, but I've had no orbited hooking up with guys. The more time that passes and the more guys I hook up with the more I'm coming to the realization that maybe I'm gay or maybe I should be gay. All I think about is cock, all I jerk off to is cock, all I long for is cock. I dream about getting fucked all the time. And for the first time in my life I actually want to be gay. I like that idea of being gay and I love it when one of the few girls that are my bffs tell me that they think I should just be gay already. Fuck it, I'm fucking gay!