Hi! I’m a very masculine, bi male (bottom) who isn’t attracted to guys faces but I am to certain features (belly, dick etc).

I have been fucked a couple times and sucked/69 a few more times. I really enjoy it! Why is it that I have been chickening out every time I get close to meeting up? I don’t want to go out for drinks, just want to get fucked and go!

I have a shower enema that I use for prep. I make sure to enema and not go too deep, and make sure it’s clear before I do anything. I like to fuck my self with bigger dildos, but when I get into the hard “fucking” more often than not I get 💩 on it and I instantly get turned off. What am I doing wrong?