Commit.

Actually invest time into something and someone. Take responsibility and man up. Prove it to yourself that you’re either very straight and even a cock up your ass can’t change that or get off this subreddit.

You say you have a “reason” why? A girlfriend? A wife? You love your life and don’t want anything to change “but” you have these feelings inside…

“Playing a role” means you never get to be yourself. If you need time and space to explore, take it. Once you’ve done your exploration, reevaluate. But realize this is the life you get.

If you’re happy and satisfied, keep on living as you want, if you desire more, there will be great adventure and also some hard truths to face.

Find a bro. Confide and become bonded, mixing cum and do that very well :P