I’ve always been into women but been frustrated about the pursuit. Women love to be chased but chasing is so exhausting. I just want to be desired, I want to feel like I’m the one who is being lusted after. More and more I’ve been watching porn with dominant men and I want so badly to be desired by them. I want tops to need me, to want me so badly, to pin me down and have their way with me. I don’t think my mind will ever be the same.

I think I want to have a boyfriend who is nice and soft and makes me feel cute and loved and wanted. I want to be the little spoon. I want to be the one who is taken care of. I’ve been dreaming of him subconsciously for so long, manifesting him. I know he’s out there. He will come and swoop me off my feet and lead me to his bedroom and rock my world. I’m done with the chase, I’m going to be the one who all the men are after.

This post is my public declaration of my deep need to just be loved and held and dicked down like crazy. Is that so much to ask?