I’m a straight guy, I was..I mean I always thought I was, but now I just can’t be. I’ve sucked too many cocks to be straight or even pretend anymore. I wish I wasn’t this way, it feels wrong and against my natural but it obviously isn’t. I love women, I always have, but more and more all I think about is submitting to cock. Older cock. Huge cock. I want hairy big bellied daddies to put me on my knees and fuck my face like a pussy and call me a faggot. I am so fucking hard just writing this, that’s how much I love it. I love meeting an older man from doublelist and I show up to his place half drunk from nerves and half from booze only to find he’s invited two friends over and they’ve locked the door and surrounded me. Then I’m being stripped naked and tossed around like a rag doll. My spit and their precum dripping down my face and my asshole spread wide with their thick meat, totally raw and wet.

In my daily life I’m masculine and straight, I am an alpha type, but when the sun goes down all I want to do is go down on my knees and be used like a whore. I feel shame in it but also great pleasure and gratitude. I don’t know what to do because I know I can’t stop. I don’t want to. But I have to.