I'm mostly straight. Only ever having been in relationships with women. It used to be every month, I'd start to get cravings for a week or two. Kinda on a cycle. For those weeks I wouldn't be able to stay hard jerking off to thoughts of fucking women. When I get like this the only thing that gets me going is imagining fat, hairy, older men with thick uncut cocks. I daydream constantly about one of them coercing me into coming over. Slowly pushing me to strip, to play with his cock, to get fucked and eventually begging him to breed me.

I was fine with this cycle for a while, but for the last couple of months, the cravings don't fully go away. My head gets fuzzy, making it difficult to focus at work. I've started looking at my male coworkers that are "my gay type". I spend way too much time scrolling through this sub and ones like it. I feel like I'm going crazy. I'm in a relationship with a wonderful woman, but I want to be a nasty fuck slut for a "real man".

It's even more confusing because men don't make me hard. If anything my cock shrinks when I think about being fucked. But I also feel drunk on all the fantasies.

Is anyone else going through this?