Hey everyone,

First time poster. Struggling with a lot of ideas and figuring out relationship and sexuality stuff. Been on a cold spell meeting girls now that I'm in college with no natural friend group, so finally decided to "change apps" and see what came about. Spent some time going through offers and new chats till I met a slightly older guy that was caring of what i was going through but kinda kinky.

Eventually met up with him and it didnt take more than our first date for me to be learning how to give head in his car as he drove us back to his condo. Spent the rest of the night, learning and getting comfortable being intimate with another guy and being gifted toys to get me ready for the next step.

Has literally been less than a week since meeting him and I'm feelingnquite addicted to both sucking and getting fucked (even though its not quite easy or feeling good all the time yet).

I know it doesn't really matter but am wondering are these things really going gay or was that inside me all the time?? So confused...