I remember my best friend and I getting drunk and messing around two different times in my late teens. It was hot of course but then life happens and we grew apart. I am a happily married straightish man. I had never did anything else with another guy, just masturbating on occasion thinking about him fucking me, self anal play, and had also gotten my wife to peg me a few times.

Then, at the beginning of May I had a trip for work come up and then an idea started forming that maybe I could find some random guy on Grindr or here and invite them to my hotel room so I could experience the feeling again. So, after talking it over with my wife and getting her approval, I started looking/posting. However, even though quite a few people responded, either they wanted to "make out," mutually masturbate, or couldn't make the timing work. I went in with the attitude it would be easy but I left disappointed thinking my chance to have this experience was gone. However, I couldn't get the idea out of my head. All I could think about was getting pounded from behind and draining every last drop of some guy's cum into my ass.

Since, my mind wouldn't let it go, I started thinking I could meet up with someone at a discreet location I have access to several days a week. My wife gave the ok, even though I wasn't gone out of town, because she wants me to have my sexual desires and liked thinking about me getting the pleasure I had been searching for. I started posting on my local bi and gay subreddits and the message requests started rolling in but the same thing: too far, the time of day, just want to make out, just want me to give them a blow job. I'm not against giving head and might do it one day just to have that experience but my mind was stuck on getting dicked down. Eventually, I had a few people that might be able to make it work some day but still no luck.

Then a guy messages me and he's not too far away from my discreet location and can make it tomorrow. I agree but am very, very nervous. I have that good anxiety running through me the whole next day. I tell him I've had close calls but everyone backed out and I can't believe it might happen. He said there was no worry today because it was definitely going to happen.

He showed up and was an older fit guy who looks like he does cardio and has good hygiene, so that is a relief. We go into a room and he just strips down. I am getting more nervous but I've told myself I'm not backing out as I know I'll regret not doing it. I got down on my knees and he told me I didn't need to do it if I didn't want. I told him I was good and for the first time in a very long time, I took a cock into my mouth. It wasn't bad at all and I thoroughly enjoyed feeling him get hard in my mouth. I started to get into it and grabbed his ass to pull his cock further into my mouth until it hit the back. He wasn't big but wasn't small, it would do just fine. I asked if he was ready to fuck me now and with his response, I bent over a waist high table near us. He got behind me and, after a bit of direction, I felt his cock slowly stretching my asshole and it felt...

AMAZING!! OMG! WHY, WHY HAD I WAITED SO LONG TO DO THIS AGAIN?! I loved it so much. All I could think about was how glad I was we were able to meet up. I turned into a complete anal slut meeting his thrust, moaning, spreading myself open (I am a thick guy and have a bubble butt), he started moaning and said he was getting close. I told him to do it as fast and hard as he could so he could cum deep in my ass. I had only ever imagined doing and saying this stuff but it was like something took over. I felt him repeatedly slam his cock as far as he could get it into me and when I knew he was getting close I started flexing my asshole as he drove it all the way in for the last time. I heard him let out moans and gasps as his cock pulsed, unloading rope after rope of his hot cum deep inside me. I slowly moved my hips side to side while squeezing and relaxing, ensuring to milk every last drop of cum from his cock.

He finally pulled out and washed up as I put my basketball shorts and shirt back on and then he got dressed. We talked for a minute and I told him I would be available a few times a week if he wanted to stop by on the regular. He said he can make it work, we exchanged phone numbers, and he left. I spent the rest of the day feeling his cum making my asshole all creamy, only letting some leak out onto my hand when I used it to masturbate a bit later that day.

Since then, I think about it almost all the time and am trying to get more guys over here to fuck me and cum in my ass. I fantasize about one guy fucking me, cumming and then the next guy using his cum as lube to keep fucking me. I fantasize about being used by multiple cocks in a row. I want to get fucked by a big cock now. One guy I talk to has a BWC and I'm doing everything I can to get him over here. I think about big black cocks now and feel a desire deep in my stomach longing to feel a big black cock buried to the hilt inside of my ass. I want to take load after load of hot cum inside me. 🥵

Even giving head, which has never been something I thought about, just part of the ritual, or a means to an end, pun intended. I imagine doing this to a random guy that just shows up, no talking or introduction. He walks in and I show him where to go. He unzips his pants and I take over, pulling his cock out and admiring it before enveloping it with my mouth. I keep going until I am told or can tell what's about to happen. Then I keep going, maybe faster even, until I feel it explode inside my awaiting mouth then slow it down, using my hand to make sure I get every last bit, sealing my lips around his cock making sure none gets left as I pull it out, sucking on the tip a bit to get any little bit that maybe left, then savoring the warm jizz and the satisfaction knowing my hot mouth made it happen, before finally letting it slowly slide down the back of my tongue and into my throat. He zips up his pants and leaves, not seeing him again until the next time he wants to deposit his cum inside one of my cock hungry, cum slutty holes.

Oh, and I wrote this as I'm sitting here after my new friend stopped in to use my asshole as his cum receptacle. I'm not sure if I'll ever stop being perpetually horny, cock hungry and craving more and more cum. I'm not sure what I am anymore but it's definitely not straight...😏

Edit: Fixed misspelling