After my first time with another guy, it was hot as hell and I thought about it many times in the days, weeks, and years after. About 2 years after jerking off to my first experience (https://www.reddit.com/r/straightturnedgay/s/cHAourVnA0)

I got bold enough to again log in to the M4M chat room on AOL and look for some cock to suck, I was going to do it again. I DM’d a guy and I was looking and as a 22 yo was nervous, he said all the right words and he was headed over. He got to my place and we quietly went to my bedroom since my roommate was sleeping. I played with his cock outside of his pants and holy shit was he hung. After he pulled out his half hard cock, I was on my knees in a second.

His cock was roughly 8” and I nursed on that thing like a baby with a bottle. He played on my bed and I worked his cock, he laid on the bed with his legs hanging over the edge at the knees and I sucked his balls, and stroked him for easily an hour before he came in my mouth.

I then climbed on top and he said “oh yeah?” I said “what?” Not knowing what he meant. He wanted to fuck me and I was totally unaware. I wish I had let him top me but he told me in our text messages after what he meant.

This night began 10 years of me being on call to suck his cock, mid day he’d text me and I would be over to blow him and go. We never even exchanged first names during that entire time period, but we knew after some basic research. We never called each other by our real names, he called me “hey you” and I called him “hey there”. I took so many loads down my throat from him but never bottomed for him, that’s such a regret of mine. He totally turned me from a random fetish to craving cock. I finally bottomed years later bc of him and I don’t regret it. More of this story to cum.