I am in an ethical non monogamous marriage. We have had several experiences including MFM, FFM and I have watched her have sex with both men and women. We have come to the part of the journey where I explore my sexuality. Thing is I am not necessarily attracted to dudes. I am attracted specifically to cock, not the guys themselves. I really want to suck a dick and eventually get fucked in the ass by someone, so we have started looking for guys for a MMF. I am very nervous about all of it. I have come to the conclusion that for my first gay experience I want to suck a dick to completion in front of my wife. I recently got on Grindr to see what is out there with not much luck so far. Is it going to be hard to find someone who is down for all this? Also I have a few logistical questions. I can’t host because of our kids so is doing this sort of thing in a car acceptable? Also would it be ok to meet the person and immediately get down to business? The idea of small talk in this scenario is anxiety inducing. I just want to take their dick out and get to sucking. If anyone has any advice or pointers it would be greatly appreciated.