Context:

*24 years old

*Virgin (Never had sex with anybody)

*Sexual orientation: Uncertain (Previously assumed to be straight/Hetero-leaning)

*Romantic orientation: Women

Before my teenage years, I was very much attracted to girls; the thought of me swinging the other way didn’t even cross my mind. At the start of my teen years however, this started to slowly change. When my hormones started going off at the beginning of puberty, I was still very much sexually attracted to women. However, it was around this point that I started to occasionally have same sex homosexual fantasies about boys/men. These same sex fantasies did not repulse me or turn me off however, instead I found them to be highly arousing. Cocks in particular were my primary homosexual interest and the thing that turned me on primarily whenever I fantasized about gay sex. So from that point I occasionally masturbated to gay fantasies while very much still (at the time) remaining attracted to girls/women and masturbating to girls & straight porn (Yes, I discreetly watched porn during this time, as I’m sure many other guys my age at that time did).

Things remained this way for some time, with me having incredible gooning sessions to straight porn & hot women, and the occasional nice big dick every now and then. As the years went on however, it started to become increasingly more difficult for me to be turned on & aroused by straight porn, and this eventually got to the point where I am today, where I (in most cases at least) cannot get hard to the sight of a naked woman or exposure to straight porn, despite me still finding them attractive & fantasizing about having sex with them. Gay porn however remained a constant; the sight of a nice sexy cock and juicy creamy cumshots in particular still aroused me & got me hard.

However, what I started to notice was a dichotomy: When masturbating to women, I was still attracted to them & their bodies, but I could not get hard without physically stimulating myself, and the orgasm from watching/fantasizing to straight porn felt better than the masturbation itself. My penis also oozed semen when ejaculating to women (Keep this particular detail in mind for what I’m about to say next). When masturbating to men & gay porn however, it was almost the complete opposite, I didn’t need to physically stimulate myself, the sight of a naked man with a sexy cock or a great cumshot was enough to get me hard, and the pleasure I felt in my cock from masturbating to men was great, but the ejaculation itself didn’t feel as good as cumming to women (At least for a while). However, in cases where the gay porn I was watching was super hot & arousing, I would often feel hot & sweaty with my heart beating out of my chest with how aroused I was, and when I finally came during those sessions, my cock wouldn’t ooze cum, it would shoot huge warm ropes of cum instead. As far as I’m aware, there’s only one instance I can recall where I felt aroused in the same way & shot huge loads of cum from masturbating to a woman.

So this stayed relatively the same for a couple years, but it was at this point that my rate of straight porn consumption was starting to diminish significantly, while simultaneously my rate of gay porn consumption was rising, in part due to how much more pleasurable masturbating to gay porn seemed to be becoming. What also started to happen around this time is that I began to develop a particular taste for men; mainly, I was starting to find men with hairy bodies & bushy cocks increasingly more attractive, especially if they were either slim or had a dad bod. Though I still find women more physically attractive than men overall, I was starting to gravitate towards aspects of a man’s body other than their cocks, and in some occasions I even started to have fantasies of a romantic relationship with a big hairy man with a nice cock (Though again, this is infrequent; I am still interested in women on a romantic level, and when not in a horny state of mind I cannot see myself in a long term NON-SEXUAL relationship with a man).

This leads me to where I am today: My porn diet is almost entirely gay porn now; even if I watch straight porn, half the time it’s to watch a particular straight male porn actor that I find sexy. Even my orgasms to gay porn have become somewhat more pleasurable to me than achieving them from straight porn.

So what am I? Is my sexuality fluid & changing? Am I bi? Or is there another explanation for all this, such as ED induced from overconsumption of straight porn, or me being straight but having a cock/cumshot fetish?