I always identified as straight. Gay porn was a no no and eww if I accidentally saw even a still image.

It all started with me coming across a rimjob video. I was fascinated. Looked amazing. I had a girlfriend back then and the sex was great. But she was pretty vanilla and even when I tried rimming her she pushed me away. Any discussion around butt play was shut down.

My curiosity got the best of me and I by then I had started watching gay porn. Only rimming videos. Soon I found myself hooking up with older gay guys of Craigslist ( those were the days ) . They loved eating me out and I had a twink-ish body then so they loved it.

After college that phase kinda died down for a while and I was involved with just the females.

However for the past couple of years the urge is back. Im craving guys again. I did hook up with a couple and they ate me out super good but I want more. I want to suck them and really really want one of them to cum inside me. This feeling is eating me alive.

I've finally realised that I'm Bi. But Everytime I hook up with a guy , I feel like I'm straight again and only want women. Untill the urge returns a few months later.

Is there anyone like me ?