Part 1

I didn't really plan on updating, that first post was just venting, but I have had a few people reach out to me seeing if I was doing okay so I thought why not.

Zoey and I just celebrated our one year wedding anniversary last month. Our relationship is going very well. We bought a house. She is always asking me how she ended up with such an amazing husband. I have been busting ass extra hard lately.

I hit a big bonus at work, and her job is doing well, although she has a lot more work stress now. I've been doing my best to help take the home stress off. Generally, getting up a bit early to make sure the house is back in order before we head to work each day. I don't want her spending her time thinking about that, I still remember how she said "The Guy" was a bit of neat freak. She said that like it was a negative, but actually her quote was, "He was kinda a neat freak, which was nice, but made me feel all this pressure....". Meaning she really liked that the place was always clean while she was with him, but I bet he got bent out of shape if things were left out by her, at least that's what I think she meant when she said that. That's why I get up early and take care of the place, I fix any mess she made or any dishes left over night while she sleeps, that way she doesn't feel like it's her fault, or like I'm bothered by the small "messes" she makes. It's working well.

We went to Hawaii for a full anniversary vacation which was a place we've always talked about wanting to go to. We did a lot of touristy things but mostly I was able to catch up on sleep. I normally only get 4-6 hours a night. So the extra helped out when I took on this really big client at work. If I do well on this one, another promotion could be in order.

I rarely check on what "The Guy" is doing now. His career hasn't grown as fast as mine I can tell, and he has a bit more of a belly now. I know I'm beating him, he can't compete with me anymore.

Zoey brought up trying for a baby soon, which is exciting. We can afford it, and it seems like the right time. However, I have been having some thoughts, maybe you can weigh in for me.

She has gotten pretty close with an older coworker, Mrs. Weaver. Mrs. Weaver was telling her about some funny stories from the times she was pregnant. They had to do with her husband making silly mistakes, but she also told Zoey how he was super supportive throughout each time. Zoey said she thought this was a "Sweet" story. I don't know exactly what she meant by "sweet." It made me feel like her priorities are changing. It may not be enough to just be fitter and more successful than the others. I know there's at least one single dad at her office. To show her I can out do him and any potential others, I started reading some books on how to best support your spouse through pregnancy, some do's and don'ts, a few other newborn books. I do this on my breaks at work, so that it doesn't interfere with the rest of my routines. Or I listen to podcasts while working out.

I doubt most men are this proactive, and really doubt "The Guy" would have been, and the coworker is a single dad, so there's got to be something wrong with him right? I mean that's a red flag in itself. Unlike me, I'm all green flags, all the time. Do you think I have anything to worry about?

Part 3