Part 2

Chrissy went radio silent from my first frantic call until she walked in the door at 7pm on Sunday night. She looked beyond nervous and scared. She already knew I was aware of everything. Eric had left Emily a voicemail telling her he gave me everything, told me everything, that he wouldn't be there when she got home, and she needed to sign the divorce papers on the kitchen table.

I told Chrissy to get her shit together. Cora came out a moment later and for a couple hours we pretended to have a normal Sunday night. Once she went to bed, I asked Chrissy what she wanted. She immediately broke down in tears and tried to hug me. I blocked the advance and she began apologizing profusely and begging for forgiveness. I told her to save it, we had a lot to talk about. I wanted every question answered 100% honestly. If I thought she was lying I would end the conversation here and file for divorce on Monday. I had tons of evidence and she wouldn't be able to get shit out of me (we are NOT in a No Fault State). Then I pointed out that she didn't answer my question. I wanted to know what she wants.

She said she wanted to show me how sorry she was, she wanted to work for forgiveness, and for us to work past this. I told her I didn't think that was possible, but would let her explain herself. I asked why she cheated in the first place. She said she had a lot of fun that day, was feeling good and relaxed. She hadn't felt that way in a long time. Work had been so stressful for so long. She let the moment, the drinks, take over and just went with it. She tried telling me how terrible she felt after but I cut her off. I wanted to know why she kept doing it. It was a totally honest answer. She wanted to and could. Yes, Emily did get in her head a bit, but also she justified it to herself by saying she had already cheated once, what was the difference at this point. The next part was hard to hear as she described what kind of things they did, as it was a total "When in Rome..." thing. Some of it she hadn't don't to me in years. I asked if she was unhappy in our relationship and she said no. She said we have a good marriage, she just wanted to feel wild, feel excited. We had gotten somewhat monotonous and this experience was exhilarating. Her plan had been to have this much sex with me, but when I didn't go she at first thought well that's out, but once it was available she let herself get taken by the moment.

I then asked about the swapping. She said that was a huge mistake. Emily had talked to her about that on the last full day, and about how they were trying it, and she thought this was even better than Chrissy and I. Emily said it's perfect because she isn't even giving up Chuck, just Mike for one night. She knew Emily complained about sex with Eric and voiced that concern. Emily claimed Eric was doing a lot better in this department, but also kind of flipped the table saying she needed this badly too and since she was gonna cover for Chrissy, this was a great way to repay her.

I asked about the threesome. Asked why she planned that. Chrissy said she never intended to step out of line again, and swore she was gonna make the most of our relationship going forward. This would explain the weeks of love bombing upon her return. She had been talking with Emily like usual, and she just seemed like she was having the time of her life now that she was open. Chrissy admitted to being a little jealous. Emily had been with several men and Chrissy was living a bit vicariously through her. When Emily started the affair with Mike she knew what she was missing, and became more jealous.

For the record I know Mike had a rep in college for being a ladies man, and if I'm being honest was the best looking of the 3 of us. He had managed to stay the most fit as he aged and had only improved that post divorce. Chrissy said when the threesome got proposed she really tried to stay strong and not get drawn in, but as the weeks went on she found herself just thinking about that. She told me she caved because Mike was really good, she had never had a threesome, and honestly thought she could get away with it. At that point she asked how I figured it out, and I said I didn't have to answer that. I asked why she didn't come right home once she knew I was onto her. She said because, “We were just going to do this. I knew this was coming, is there really a difference between me staying and continuing the sex I planned and running home right away, the end results are the same.”

I asked her if there was anything else and she said no, she just wanted a chance to earn trust, forgiveness, and to reconcile. I said no, I don't want this anymore, I am hurt, betrayed, and can't stand to look at her. I was going to file for divorce the very next day.

Part 4