I’ve always struggled with drinking, especially binge drinking. Made it almost a year sober with the help of AA years ago.

Overall I’ve controlled my drinking due to the responsibility of work. But, over the past year my mother has gotten very sick and I became her caretaker up until recently when I had to bring in at home hospice care.

Long story, short, watching my mother slowly fade away has me now drinking heavily every day to numb the reality of what is going on right in front of me. This has me calling out sick on a weekly basis, and I’m realizing I can’t stop. I’m scared to see the road this habit will take me down and I’m scared to feel emotions as well.

But, today I can promise I won’t drink. One day at a time.