When I stopped drinking, I thought I’d still allow myself a drink when I’d be on holiday abroad (long story short, I was mostly drinking daily because of my anxiety disorder, but on holiday I was able to drink moderately because I was less anxious). But after a month without alcohol, I don’t know if I ever want to drink again. Drinking was a huge part of my life, but nowadays when I think about alcohol I only think of the bad stuff that comes with it : bad nights, headaches, hangovers, depression the next day, urges to harm myself… It’s crazy because, before, alcohol was only associated with good stuff in my mind.

I still think about some good moments I had with alcohol on holidays : a glass of bourbon in a classy hotel bar in the US at 2AM, drinking beer with crazy Japanese dudes in Tokyo… but honestly, wouldn't these moments have been as memorable if I drank, say, a Coke Zero instead of alcohol? Now I’m starting to think that a whole life of sobriety doesn’t sound so bad. Alcohol really plays with you brain it appears, making you feel like you couldn’t live without it.

Anyway, happy Thanksgiving to all the US people here, hope you won’t be struggling too much today! Sending you all the best to resist the urges! IWNDWYT