Hi to everyone,

First of all, I just wanted to say thank you to this subreddit who provided very useful tips through my intensive lurking.

I’ve been dealing with an awful anxiety disorder (mainly focused on health anxiety) and depression for years and years. I’m 28 now and since I’m 14 I’ve been drinking and have had troubles controlling my consommation. I’ve been through successful moderation periods, but anytime I hit hard times, alcohol was always the solution. I wasn’t a daily drinker, but couldn’t stop myself whenever I was drinking. Then came last Friday. Went to the shop, buy a 1.5L (50 oz) bottle of cider. Then another one. Then a bottle of wine. And I added a beer with my Uber Eats order for good measure. Of course, I felt like shit the next day and it was the tipping point to me. I had to stop drinking, stop alcohol to have such an influence over my mind and body.

Well, it’s been four days today. Not a huge victory, but still. I feel like shit, I have basically a big panic attack since this morning (I feel like I’m having a stroke), but hey, managed to get through my day. And went to my first AA meeting ! So tonight, instead of a beer, pouring myself some hot tea — and a biscuit with that, because one biscuit is still less calories than even a small beer !

I hope that with the help of my wife, with the help of the AA, and with your help, I can win this battle tomorrow. And the day after that. And the day after that as well.

Lots of love to y’all brave people