Hi all,

Ive crept on this page here and there and Just wanted to share my story as I want today to be the day that things change for me and be more active in this community.

I'm a health care worker, today when I was performance a medical imaging exam on a patient, I read up on this patients history because our radiologists like to know what's going on with them/their history to make an accurate report.

Turns out, this patient is practically just like me in terms of alcoholism. The history said "a mickey a day" and "function alcoholic". This is me in a nutshell, I work, on my way home I pick up a mickey, I drink about half throughout the evening and slam the rest down before bed after my kids go to sleep (all without my wife noticing) . I wake up, go to work, dispose my mickey and repeat the cycle all over again. Meanwhile, my wife is unknowning about what is going on, I crash hard at night and she thinks I just get super tired because i take care of my kids with no issues and do what needs to be done.

My patient today was going through pancreatitis and severe liver damage w/ tubes draining out abscesses, extra fluid from their body. I don't want this to be me anymore and I don't want to be in a state mt patient was today. It was very eye opening... Today is the day things change hopefully. I have tried before, but today needs to be it. Otherwise, what else would make me change? Today's experience will always be in the forefront of my mind as motivation and I hope it helps motivate anyone else out there.