So I relapsed after 14 months. It was honestly the best year of my life. I know why it happened. A couple big things happened rapidly over a month and I found an excuse to say I was cured and could drink.

And now the alcoholic part of my brain has turned back on. Last time I fell off it lasted 6 months and I did some damage. I don’t want to damage this time. Idk why I’m posting. Other than maybe for some encouragement that people started over and it was still worth it.

I honestly don’t think I care so much about the day counter anymore. Just about being the best me. And after only a couple weeks, I know that’ll slip quickly.

I still feel the sober girl in me that built up that time. I guess I just feel a little lost. Anyways thanks for reading. Sober today, worked out… watching a movie. Life is good. Just don’t want to lose it all again. I built my life up from ruin last time I got sober. I don’t want to have to do that again. Maybe I need someone to scare me lol

Anyways I hope everyone is having a great day. IWNDWYT