Well it wasn't the most fantastic implosion. I didn't get blacked out, arrested, or injured. I did kind of escalate a fight with my girl, gave her a little shove, and said some mean things. I've been slipping for a awhile. Sneaking drinks in, lying about it, increasing amounts, higher ABV, isolating. Pretty classic relapse. My Mom is driving over, I really don't want her to, but she has earned the right to insist at this point.

I've done it before and I can do it again, but for fuck sakes am I tired. Glad I got tired before I got arrested or fired. Don't know how my relationship with my girl will fare on the other end of this. We both have some decisions to make. At least I'm going to attempt them sober because my thinking was getting a little erratic and irrational.