I went out and did not drink. My friends did all kinds of drugs but I abstained. The crew we were hanging out with was not the best, but I might not have noticed if I were drunk. I was quite concerned for some of my friends, girls especially. It was surely not boring, since I was quite active in making sure all was fine. I guess normally I would not notice. I don't know exactly what to think but indeed, maybe it's enough with this type of party. I am not sure whether I had fun per se. I surely felt a lot of intense emotions. My friend was ridiculously high and I was able to bring her back home. I don't know. I wonder what could have happened if I had taken drugs and drank as I usually do. I guess people are generally good, because nothing too bad ever happened, despite the risky situations in which we put ourselves. I truly want to find some different type of satisfaction in life. This is not it anymore.