I really don't know how to handle stress without alcohol. I really don't know if I want to handle stress without alcohol.

My star employee, the one I rely on to be able to keep things running for me so I can have time off, has just resigned. She has been having major issues with another staff member, but I cant fire her due to our HR laws. I was already dreading next week as I am working every day to cover staff absences, and now I will also have to try and hire another staff member.

I have also had to reschedule my new therapist that was for next week as I will be working.

I seriously just want to buy some bottles of wine, and drink so I don't have to think about it for a while.

Earlier this week I put myself on a Banned Drinkers Register (where I live you have to show ID to purchase takeaway alcohol, I told them to disallow me voluntarily). I'm really regretting this now. I could go to a bar and drink, but that wont be enough.

I feel like no matter what I do, I'm going to be miserable.

I'm sorry for the rant, I just don't know what else to do but to vent into reddit.