So near christmas I had a bit of a mental break down. this last year was tough for me ( and everyone else haha) but I lost a job due to covid in the summer , got a new job where I was immediately promoted because I did such a great job... and promptly walked out because My nerves got the better of me. I am my worst enemy. Alchohol I used to think eased my nerves but after my wife noticed I drank wine that was in the liquor cabinet ( I hate wine) and filled it with water she gave me an ultimatum. Quit drinking or we are finished. I went 3 weeks with no drinking then new years came and my wife gave me the green light. Since then I have not snuck drinking at all because if I am caught I feel my wife will leave me. Which is great I love being honest and it was a terrible road to go down. My wife said she is okay with me drinking 2 days a week ( it used to everyday for over 10 years) . I have stuck to that and feel a million time better...on days I am not hungover. I count down the days until drinking day even though my sober days I feel like a million bucks. I feel like I need to just give up the drinking entirely. Not being hung over has made me realize what a useless blob I am all day when I am. I am about to go back to work and know I cant drink on work nights because I will lose my mind again.

I feel like I just won't let it go. Anyone have advice that weened off slowly on how to finally stop? Thanks for listening sorry I needed to vent.