As you can see by my days I relapsed recently after a few weeks sober and my girlfriend left me for good and im absolutely gutted. She's definitely not coming back and she blocked me on everything. This was the girl I was going to marry, my world. And I fucked it up because of drink. Going through withdrawals and this is heart breaking. I know one thing though, that was definitely my last drink. Maybe this had to happen for me to finally become the man I was meant to be. This is going to be a tough few months and im devastated. I fucking hate alcohol and I will not be drinking with you today or anytime in my future. I feel numb and im going to burst into tears at some point but for some reason it's not happening yet. Sorry, I just needed somewhere to get this out. Gutted, lost my future.