First time, long time. I’m nearly 4 years sober (Dec. 28th 2016). And if I think about it rationally getting sober after 12 years of heavy drinking was absolutely the right decision. I also know drinking again will only make me feel good for like an hour.

But I think 2020 has finally gotten to me and I find myself thinking the classic “fuck it, who cares”. Part of it is this past year, part of it is the holidays, and part of it is just unhappiness in my own personal life and just being exhausted.

This forum has been a huge help for me over the last 4 years. So I just wanted to check-in and reach out.

Y’all are my heroes! Hope everyone is hanging in there!