Good morning lovely people. I hope everyone is having a fantastic day so far!

I was hoping to get some ideas on how you stay sober and involved in the sober world. For the last few years I’ve been in and out of AA. After my last relapse, I finally concluded it just wasn’t for me at this time. I might revisit it down the road but it was not helping me. I’m now over 3 months and getting close to beating my sober record! Woo! But I don’t know what to do with myself. The drinking cravings have been intense. I’m trying to start journalling again. I am medicated for depression for the first time in years. My marriage has healed. My friends can tell I’m better. But underneath all the positive, I just want to drink. I don’t have a sober community other than some sober family and I’m lost at what to do.

This is all kind of train of thought. But does anyone with some time have some new suggestions for staying involved in sobriety? I need something new. I’ve read books, I work out, I eat healthy ish, I follow people on Instagram. I’m honestly trying to just live my life. But I’m realizing I miss the part of AA where you connected with another alcoholic. I just feel stagnant in my sobriety but also TIRED OF IMPROVING. Lol idk if that makes sense. I’ve done so much work on myself and I’m burnt out. Can anyone relate to that? I miss being a piece of shit how messed up is that.

If you got far thanks! I just don’t want to drink again but I know I’m starting to feel that pre relapse feeling.

IWNDWYT