I decided to drink last night. I think I’m getting divorced and I just lost my motivation and got sad and said fuck it. I’m scared I’m just gonna keep going. I feel sick for the first time in over 100 days. I’m anxious and have to worry about what I said. I’m crying to my husband because I feel like a failure which isn’t fair to him because we are separating and he is sad too and needs his space. Drinking didn’t fix my life. It did make me even sadder today when I’m already emotionally going through the worst pain ever. I feel like I threw away almost 4 months. This just all sucks. I wish I had been stronger. But here we are.

Maybe though by sharing this it’ll help someone see It isn’t worth it to drink. I really wish I could take it back. Nothing bad happened. But hangovers suck.