Not sure how consistent I'll be writing about my journey, but for now it seems to help to throw my thoughts out into the ether. It reinforces the commitment for me somehow. They say that thinking something is one thing, but when you commit it to writing your brain processes it differently, taking it more seriously somehow. Anyway, woke up again this morning feeling overall good. I try to commit that feeling to my brain so that I can try to use it later to help combat the cravings that I know will set in. For me they're an "after work" thing. Hey, whistle blew, we're off the clock, time to drink woo hoo! Which, wouldn't be so terrible if I had an "off" switch. I don't, and that's always been a running joke for me. People would sometimes comment "wow, you're having another one, I'm already drunk?" Me: "ha, ya, I have no off switch". I wore it like a badge of honor, as if it was admirable to be able to drink so much and still maintain composure (some of the time at least).

My win for today was actually getting out of bed when my alarm went off. While I'm still not sleeping great, I still feel 10 times better waking up sober than I ever did drinking. I got up, made some coffee, and just enjoyed the morning a bit before I had to get the kids up for school. I'll be fine at work, that's never been an issue for me. I'll try to leave early today if I can, before the cravings set in, so that I can deal with them at home instead. I'll likely visit you guys later to check in when they hit. Or try to keep myself occupied with something around the house like I did yesterday - it never ceases to amaze me how much more productive I am when I don't drink for a few days.

Anywho, off to work for now.