I've been sober since July 9, 2015. Right now, I'm dealing with the most difficult things I've had to endure in sobriety. Between my parents getting divorced after 42 years of marriage, trying to get my driving privileges reinstated, and my long-time girlfriend and I breaking up, the thought of drinking has been looming heavily over me.

I've never dealt with a breakup sober, and this is one of the most painful things I've ever tried to deal with. My lack of a drivers license - a direct result of my drinking - put a lot of strain on our relationship. She always had to come pick me up, take me wherever we were going, and bring me home whenever we did anything together. It caused a lot of resentment and stress for her, and played a big part in our breakup. Now that I'm working on getting my license reinstated, it just got to be too much. She hit her breaking point.

As if I wasn't already upset about the situation with my parents, now I'm alone, lonely, and heartbroken on top of it. I know I have to keep moving forward, but goddammit, getting drunk is seeming awfully tempting. I just want a break. Just to shut my mind off for a little while so I won't have to feel this.