I (M36) hadn’t had an issue until today. Today I realized this isn’t just temporary this is a very real lifestyle change (that I desired) and my entire adult life built on social outings and drinking has now changed. I was never dependent on alcohol. I was dependent on being social and that led to a lot of binge drinking.

I can’t even go to a work outing anymore. Small town. No friends that DON’T drink. Hell I’m not sure I know a single person that doesn’t drink besides my wife.

I have been anxious all day about it. Trying to think of what the heck I’m going to do as a hobby now that doesn’t feel pointless. I like doing a lot of things but I hate doing them alone. Which is again why I feel so anxious. At a loss emotionally today.