I had a pretty bad bender that ended Tuesday night. I felt like garbage Wednesday, ok Thursday (handed out candy to kids but that was about it), walked four miles on the treadmill yesterday, and ran/walked 5 this morning.

Didn’t eat Wednesday, finally ate dinner Thursday, and then ate a LOT Friday and today.

My place looked…bad on Wednesday. It finally is spotless and smells good.

I looked badddd Wednesday..today I showered and put on make up and did self care.

….WHY did I still have a thought to drink tonight?! Albeit it was a fleeting thought, damn alcohol really is the devil. I did not and won’t drink tonight and already have my coffee ready for tomorrow morning before the gym again, but man…fuck alcohol. After I literally spent like 3 days fixing everything I fucked up on a four day bender, I STILL had a thought to drink. Addiction really is powerful.

IWNDWYT

Edit: two words