Hi everyone. I could really use some encouragement. I’ve been fighting this battle for coming on 7 years and am once again on day one.

I made an absolute ass out of myself. Screamed at a friend who didn’t deserve it, may have ruined my 4 year relationship, and embarrassed myself beyond measure very publically in front of a lot of coworkers.

I’m an abusive, manipulative and emotional drunk. Sober I’m very kind and loving. I don’t know how this shame will pass but I do not I can not drink again. I’m debating rehab because I’m so scared my life is ruined.

Anyways those of you who hit rock bottom or something close, any love sent my way would be greatly appreciated. I’m at work and really just want to be in bed crying. I can’t see the light yet but I do no I’m so done digging.

Iwndwyt or any other day.