Hi guys!

First post in this group, but I have been lurking a little.

I think I’ve just realised I can’t do this on my own. At least not without someone to keep me accountable. Still unsure if I should talk to anyone in my family or social circles yet however or find an online group or in person group. I think maybe online to start?

I swear even though I’m in my mid to late twenties people act like I’m just living my life and drinking and throwing up etc is just a part of being in our twenties. I know I have a problem. I drink EVERY day and wake up every morning so upset at myself and promising not to do it again and that I’ll stop but then that little voice in my head wants me to drink again after 12pm. Whether I’m happy or sad, if I’m down alcohol will perk me up or if I’m happy it’s a reward.

I have previously read Annie Grace’s 30 day “The alcohol experiment” to motivate me to stay off it while I was focusing on my fitness and I listen to Annie Grace’s podcast “This Naked Mind” and also the podcast “Champagne Problems” often to remind myself of others stories in the hopes that I would learn from them.

Usually I’m good at learning from others mistakes but for some reason with alcohol I just can’t seem to stop when I hear others stories.

I think because I’ve let it get so bad, I keep telling myself that one more day won’t hurt me but that’s been going on for a couple of years now at least.

Plus I make up every excuse under the sun for why I can have a drink after I tell myself I won’t.

Anyways, it feels good to get it out and hear from people that have experienced similar things to me. I feel so alone sometimes.