So yesterday marked 2 months since I completely stopped drinking. There are other factors in life that are weighing on me right now and I don’t feel as happy as I think that I should. Not that I’m tempted to go back and drink but it just doesn’t feel like that much of an accomplishment. But when I look at my continued journey of sobriety, it’s something I didn’t think was possible for a while. At the peak of my drinking I would down half a 1.75 L bottle of vodka a day. The longest I would go without drinking would be the 2-3 hours of sleep (maybe) I would get a night or when I was laying in bed recovering just enough in order to continue drinking. I lost all motivation for relationships, school, work. As soon as the bottle was empty I was on Uber eats or instacart ordering another one. It kept going until I was eventually evicted. I then transitioned to drinking beer constantly, 3-4 25 oz bottles a day. Going from beer to hard liquor made it easier to be a “functioning” alcoholic. I found a job, was doing better in school and it seemed like I was going to be okay. As long as I had a beer. If I had a bottle open and knew it was going to run out, almost like a reflex, I was grubbing around for change in my room and headed to the corner store. This was effecting me at my job though. I would be tired recovering from the come down, so I said “I won’t drink 2 hours before work”. It was easy to break that rule though, “I’ll just have a swig before I go” “I shouldn’t be doing much today it’ll be fine”. But it wasn’t and I knew I couldn’t continue on like this but I didn’t think I had the will to stop. Then I was able to spend a few days with my friend and there was no drinking involved. And I felt amazing, no fatigue, easier sleep, clearer mind. But after that experience I figured I’d just go back to my typical ways. And for a few days I did. And I immediately felt the difference, my body actively telling me “we can’t function the way we need to when you drink”. So I listened , and stopped drinking May 17th 2024. The first week was challenging, the 2nd week was a lil easier, the 3rd week became second nature, and then came the 4th week. The week I was set to go on vacation alone for the first time, would I be strong enough, would I slack off and think “why not one drink won’t hurt” . I was worried but I kept on the path. Now here we are a month later and I’m ready to conquer each day. While this is the very beginning, please know that the journey to sobriety started when I was still downing bottles, when I was still unable to fight my demons. No matter what stage you are in, you are amazing and can be in places you would have never imagined in your wildest dreams, if you continue to fight for yourself.