I’ve been a functioning alcoholic for about 10 years. I will go long stints without drinking but then ultimately say, “oh I will have just one…” but there is never a just one for me. This past week I had a nervous breakdown. I didn’t sleep for 3 days, drank the whole time, did a ton of edibles. I don’t remember a ton of it, but I wrote a 12 page manifesto about all of my trauma, stuff I’ve never told anyone, stuff I’ve hidden even from myself. Finally slept for 17 hrs straight. That was on Monday. I’m 7 days sober now. I have my first therapy appointment tomorrow. I’m scared, nervous. This week I have been eating clean and sober off of all substances. My head feels clearer. I’m working out.

I don’t want to deal with the trauma but I know if I don’t it is only a matter of time till I’m hitting the bottle again.

Any good coping strategies y’all recommend?