Hey guys I am about to finish day 20 if all goes well and I’m stressed. Just getting off work and it was just an annoying day. Nothing worth drinking over. But my partner texted me that he was out with people which always makes me anxious for a bunch of irrelevant reasons. So I’m anxious and want to drink and know that isn’t rational or helpful or will change anything about the any situation. Other than it’ll make me feel like shit in the morning. But any kind words would be appreciated. Also a few weeks off vaping and I would kill for nicotine lol might be making a pan of muffins when I get home but if it keeps me from getting liquor I guess I don’t care.

This is a hot mess. I’m just in my feelings. My therapist that I just found and have had one session with said it’s human and actually ok to have uncomfortable feelings. 🤯 so maybe instead of drinking this away I’m supposed to sit in it and learn why I was upset by something so small.

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Also there is a meeting at 7am I really want to check out so I can’t drink otherwise I know I won’t go!!!